Please Pray our TA Comes this Week!

So TA's are rolling in.  Monday, many families got theirs, but they were mostly families waiting 25-28 days.  Whew.   We are on day 18 today and supposed to be expedited.  Today was tough.  I saw a couple TA's for people adopting children with the same special need as our son who were quite far behind us once upon a time.  Theirs were obviously expedited.  Why not ours?  Don't get me wrong-I am thrilled for them and so glad they can get their children before the closure.  Our son needs to get home too, as do a couple other kids whose families are waiting on their Travel Approval.  I've been holding onto the phone like it is glued to my hand.  Then I heard our agency got their DHL today, but no TA's.  Sigh.  I have been so strong lately and not crying since I heard about the upcoming consulate closure.  Today, I lost it.  It is my husband's birthday and he is out of town.  It is the day we got our TA for Lena last year (same timeline for her non- medically expedited adoption).   I just don't get it.

Then Fed-Ex shows up with a package with two CD's- one had updated pictures from when our agency met our son on their visit at the end of May/early June.  The other may be a movie- having trouble opening it.  Normally I would be thrilled to get this.  Today it was bittersweet.   I just wanted to cry more. I feel like I have done everything in my power to get him home as quick as I can, but I still feel like I am failing him.  I want to keep the hope up for a July 1st gotcha day, but my hope is fading away.  I know miracles happen.  I am not giving up hope completely unless TA does not come by Friday.  Consulate appointments are filling up fast though from July 1st-July 11th.   Pray with me that these children who need to come home to get the medical care they desperately need can come home sooner rather than later.  If we miss the July 1st gotcha- it will be July 15th.  We not only miss Reid's 6th Birthday and have to send another cake to the orphanage, but we will miss Elijah and Jonah's 5th birthday- the second birthday we've missed due to travel and the celebration of Lena's 1 year gotcha day with our family.   That's just hard on a mom's heart. I feel like after getting our photo album at the end of April he is probably starting to wonder if we are really coming.  I know God has a plan and I know it is in His timing, but I know this could have happened and am praying it still will.

 Reid with Diana from our agency.

 Reid with Lydia- our caseworker at our agency.

 Playing with one of his only friends left in the orphanage- another child whose family is waiting on travel approval.  He needs to get home for an open heart surgery.

 Sporting the red, white, and blue gear.